Tears To Remember

  

        In 2019, the corona virus disease started to spread. The whole world was affected, the normal flow of time seemed to stop. There was chaos everywhere and everyone was scared for their lives. Numerous establishments closed and shortage for toilet papers, alcohols and other necessities occurred. Schools also came into a halt, a 2 week suspension of face to face classes was extended into months, and then a year. 

        In the span of many months with no classes, I was really bored and I did not know what to do with the time I had. I hoped and wished that the opening of classes will start sooner. When it finally started, modular and online learning were the only options we had. At first, it was fun to be back at studying because I got to do something different, but as the time went by, answering modules became more and more difficult to do. My mental health was also affected, I cried almost everyday because of the pressure that the people gave me and the lack of motivation that I have felt. I forced myself to answer my modules and do the activities. I have understood the lessons a little bit, but they did not last long in my memory. I talked about what I was feeling to a small circle of friends that I have and they said that they were also experiencing the same. But I did not talk about it often because I know that they also have their own problems and I did not want to add mine anymore. I had my diary, in there, I wrote all of the things that I have felt and experienced everyday.  

        Nobody expected the pandemic to happen. No one was prepared and everyone struggled to cope up. The set up back then is one of the most difficult things that I had to go through in my entire life. It was not easy to learn and understand our lessons and I had no motivation to do anything at all. I felt like I did the same thing every day, like I was trapped in a life full of misery and suffering. But with the help of God, my friends, my family, some of my teachers, and myself, I was able to get through it.